The everyday struggle - is what we're doing what we're meant to be doing? In the past year I've battled, and with each small step forward I've delved a little deeper into the trenches of my consciousness. I've suffered loss where I never imagined I really could, I set myself up for destruction in places where all I thought I wanted was to conquer, I've found real meaning in the simplest of life's processes....
So at this point I feel free. Volleyball Canada has decided to revoke my funding for the upcoming year. I'll admit it was a bit of a blow, but all it really means is that there is no money for me. I had a good plan set up for the upcoming year and the lack of potential funding put a bit of a dent in it, but it has also removed the necessity of a plan. A bit of a weight removed.....a surprising feeling, I'll be the first to admit.
So, you might ask, now what?
Well, I have a plan...and a pretty good one at that. Not far removed from the yearly plan of last week, it is only short term. But I'm confident that if it works out, it'll bring me to the next place that I need to be.
For now, I'll be in Vancouver until February. I look forward to it and the great empty space before me in which I can create.
I'll keep you posted......
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